*tears*

The good, exciting news is that we got a dog.  He is a three year old Pembroke Welsh Corgi named Captain.  Excellent dog.  We can’t believe how well we did with him.  Our family is growing.

Captain lived with us, illegally, for about three days.  Friday afternoon Josh packed up the rest of his non-furniture stuff and drove home with the Captain in the passenger seat.  My family drove away and lives two hundred miles from me for a minimum of two years.  I got a family and three days later it drove away.

I’ll be driving home Friday night and staying til Monday afternoon with them.

I’ve been sleeping on the couch since they left.  Can’t bear to go back to that big empty bed and start two years of sleeping in our bed alone.  I know the separateness is inevitable and is now a fact of our life, already, but I can’t bear to really begin it yet.

I’ve been crying on and off since I got home from work last night around 7.

*tears*

The good, exciting news is that we got a dog. He is a three year old Pembroke Welsh Corgi named Captain. Excellent dog. We can’t believe how well we did with him. Our family is growing.

Captain lived with us, illegally, for about three days. Friday afternoon Josh packed up the rest of his non-furniture stuff and drove home with the Captain in the passenger seat. My family drove away and lives two hundred miles from me for a minimum of two years. I got a family and three days later it drove away.

I’ll be driving home Friday night and staying til Monday afternoon with them.

I’ve been sleeping on the couch since they left. Can’t bear to go back to that big empty bed and start two years of sleeping in our bed alone. I know the separateness is inevitable and is now a fact of our life, already, but I can’t bear to really begin it yet.

I’ve been crying on and off since I got home from work last night around 7.

Get your shit together kid

You’ve grown into an asshole. A person of whom I am no longer proud and with whom I am no longer impressed. Instead of hope and happiness, I feel fear for you every day. You used to simply inspire me and now you inspire tears and tangible heartache that makes me wonder if I’m not really too young for a heart attack.