What a day for some whining

Josh’s dad offered him a great job back home today. Lots of money in a good working environment.

It’s also 200 miles from here.

It’s also a blatant ploy to 1) get Josh to move back home and 2) get him away from me because they know I have a good job I can’t give up because there are no jobs back home (other than this one, of course).

I’m terrified and torn. I want him to take the job because it would mean financial security. I don’t want him to take it because it would mean we would either be back to long distance relationship or we’d move there and be owned by his parents.

I hate his mother.

If it comes to it and I don’t get the money to keep my job past June, we might just go. He’d be making enough to support us both and I wouldn’t have a job here.

As a backup, I have asked a friend with a two bedroom condo in Iowa City if her second bedroom will be available (she was going to give it to her sister if her sister went to college in that town, but I don’t know what the sister is doing) and I can rent it, because there are more job possibilities in Iowa City than here.

But I just don’t know. It was a long and crappy day and I didn’t really want to come home to internal conflict.